Padriana Grace

Padriana here!

I’m beyond ecstatic and abundantly grateful that you made your way to JCCML! Whether you found your way here due to meeting me out in real life somewhere (and I probably talked your ear off and connected to you in some form of way) or we are colleagues, family, friends, friends of a friend, or just social media buddies, —I appreciate you.  Truth is, I believe that no matter how you found your way to JCCML, I trust that God led us both here. 

I am the founder of JCCML-Jesus Christ Changed My Life. I am a proud 2nd Grade Elementary Teacher, Writer, Blogger, and Content Creator. I received my B.A degree from Clark Atlanta University. I’ve been teaching for 3 years. My hometown is, Rockford, Illinois. Fun fact about me… I lived in Utah for 10 years! (Moved there with my family in 5th grade and graduated high school there) Currently, I live in Georgia with my fur- baby, JayBlue. He’s a little white Maltese,  full of light and energy. I’m passionate about being a light to others and helping remind women of how freeing it is to be one with God. I truly believe that when you truly seek Him, Jesus really does leave a mark on you that changes your life forever. 

I founded JCCML when I was a sophomore in college at Clark Atlanta University. I can remember the exact feelings I felt when God had first begun to poke at my heart leading me to birth JCCML. I had no idea how to run a blog, a website, or really how a blog was “supposed” to be run. I just knew I had something within me that was so intensely sparked with Jesus and His grace that I couldn’t contain it to myself. I can remember so many times where I really, really, thought something must be wrong with me for being a Christian, yet being such a “hot mess”. Now when I say hot mess, I’m talking about literally I felt like the most imperfect Christian on the universe simply because  I truly am so imperfect.

However, now, I’m able to accept my imperfections, while also accepting that despite how imperfect and a mess I am, Jesus’s Grace somehow still always manages to  find it’s way to me. For some reason, for years, I had this crazy ideology in my head that if I was a Christian and was going to lead a Christian blog, then surely I must be an ideal Christian. I thought that meant it was totally unethical and unworthy to be battling with sin and temptation as a Christian woman. I thought, because I knew Christ and publicly spoke of Him, that meant I needed to be a perfect living example. Y’all, this literally just about crippled me throughout college. I would have so many internal wars with myself for: feeling unworthy, feeling that God was mad at me whenever I messed up for not living up to the “Christian” standard. Seriously, what even is the Christian standard? I wish I had realized sooner how much Jesus delighted in me and accepted me for my mess and all. It would have saved me much time from running from Him and my platform so many times when I “messed up.”

Many of my mess ups included premarital sex, unhealthy relationships with men, self esteem battles, seeking men and relationships for some sort of validation and completion, and internally fighting myself for thinking I wasn’t enough throughout much of my teenage and college years. Dealing with all these colliding forces, somedays I couldn’t come to terms with how God wanted me to lead a platform advocating that Jesus Christ Changed My Life.

Fast forward to my current season of life– now, God has truly mended, stretched, and molded me all before my eyes. I now understand that God is constantly changing my life and if I live my life waiting to be “perfect” or “worthy” of spreading the goodness of Jesus– then I would never fully experience my purpose. My purpose is to share the raw actualities that Christians face while also sharing the amazing Joy that comes from Him. I am passionate and headstrong about recognizing generational curses and being the one from my bloodline brave enough to break them.

There are so many raw struggles that believers face, that often Christians like to pretend they aren’t subjected to because well- lets face it, many Christians think that if we are believers then that must mean we are now somehow exempt from the struggles presented to mankind and that surely we must be the ones who are strong enough to fight off sin and lead a perfect life of example. Well, truth is that is such a misleading and miserable way to live thinking you have to be perfect in order to receive God’s love. I too use to battle with this and somedays I still have days where I have to remind myself God’s not concerned with perfection, He’s concerned with whats in our hearts and what we pour out. I thank God for His patience and love that He continuously showers upon while I’m a mess and I just want to share with the world that this love, peace, and grace is available to all who seek Christ.

Every trial and every form of pain I have endured, I can  confidently say that God is the one remedy that has always been there and sustained me. For every problem, worry, and storm–God’s Grace has always been my light strong enough to walk me through every door. Despite some doors that led to darker pathways than others, God has always been the one avenue strong enough for whatever force I was being reckoned with.

So here we are. Like many of you, I’ve been through much pain and dark doorways, but after each one, God’s grace has always revealed to me the beauty within every painful road I’ve had to encounter and climb. Ultimately, if it wasn’t for my pain, I don’t believe I would truly appreciate the depths of God’s Grace and Mercy. He truly has changed my life. I often get sentimental when I think of where I’d be without his light guiding me through all these years even when I didn’t deserve it. 

So friends, thats the raw me! I’m here to offer raw transparency and reminders of just how far you have come. I know you have come far simply by you just being here. I really am rooting for you, friend. We are in this together, we are all truly just doing the best we can.

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose.” -Romans 8:28

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-Jeremiah 29:11

11 Comments Add yours

  1. Perginia says:

    Beautiful! Jesus picked up the pieces and made a Masterpiece ! You are such a inspiration . Only God can turn mess into a Masterpiece. Glory to God! May God continue to Bless and keep you

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  2. Thank you for the follow Padriana. It’s a pleasure to meet you and have this connection and I look forward to reading more of your blog.

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    1. Thank you so much! I appreciate your kind words! I also look forward to reading your posts! 🙂

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  3. This is beautiful and you are gorgeous girl! I’m so glad that God has shown you how amazing you are! Receive every bit of it ❤️

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    1. Thank you thank you!!!! To God be the Glory! You’re beautiful inside and out!! Keep going girl!! ❤️

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  4. Laura Bennet says:

    Thank you for checking out my blog and “finding” me! What an amazing heart for the Lord and testimony you have. You are a beautiful young woman inside and out. I pray all the best for you as you continue living in love with Jesus. It doesn’t get better than that!

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  5. peggy says:

    A beautiful testimony.

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  6. peggy says:

    A beautiful testimony of grace

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    1. Thank you so much! I certainly appreciate it! ❤️

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  7. Julia says:

    This is truly inspirational! I appreciate your honesty and we all need to remind ourselves that God is in control even when we try to be in control!
    Your mama is also my friend and a god fearing woman!

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    1. Thank you so much! You’re so right! We all need that reminder. I know I do. 💕 thanks so much! I know my mom speaks highly of you! Thank you for reading and supporting my blog! You’re amazing!

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